Postnatal depression

[Alwaysworrie22]

Hi,

I am looking to know that people are in the same boat as me- I had a baby in June 2022. I had 3 miscarriages before having him and it was a difficult pregnancy where I had to inject myself daily. I noticed I started worrying a few months into the pregnancy about things outside of my control. First it was the war with Russia and Ukraine which I would follow on the news obsessively, then as if over night I moved onto worrying about the baby dying where I would watch him sleep constantly and he got a swollen gland which I thought was cancer, then I became obsessed that I was Ill and was going to die and leave my baby ( I’ve spent hundreds on bupa and private scans for reassurance) and I’m just exhausted. I know once I get over a worry a new one will come along. The doctor has just diagnosed me with PND and started me on citalopram which was going fine for the first two weeks but the last 48 hours have been hell. I have felt suicidal and the only thing that is stopping me is the thought of my baby and I can’t put my poor family through that. Please tell me it gets better?

Bumping to see if anyone can help

Hiya, so sorry your having a hard time!
I had my baby in July 22, I had a missed miscarriage august 21 so she is my rainbow baby. I had 4 private scans where I was so scared that she wouldn’t have a heartbeat or something was wrong. She also had swollen glands on the back of her head which the doctor send her for an ultrasound scan for but the wait was 3 months and I was so upset thinking she had cancer too! I’m currently waiting for a call back from the GP to get some antidepressants today. What your experiencing sounds like postnatal anxiety which I also had for the first 3 months however this can happen any time from birth to 1 year PP. I was on antidepressants a few years ago and I also experienced extreme side effects, please do contact the GP if these feelings carry on. Things really will get better, for some weird reason the antidepressants can have these side effects the first month of taking them and it’s important that your honest about them. I hope you have support around you but you are more than welcome to message me privately!

Oh gosh @Alwaysworrie22, sounds like you've been really ill.

How are you now? Are you receiving any support?

Hi everyone I am currently going through PND I have been on sertraline for 3 months and i felt loads better, so I thought I could come off it, but it's not the case I feel like I've taken a massive step back, just wondering about other experiences, just need to talk to others who are going through it.

Hi @Lefty36
i was coming on here to see if anyone felt the same as I do. My baby is nearly 7 weeks old and I have just admitted to myself that I think I have PND. I’ve been through a lot to get my baby and I worry so much about her health and my other children. I’m emotional all the time I feel down. I don’t want to go on medication but not sure how to snap out of it

Hi Mandy I was on the medication for 3months then thought I was better so tried to ween off of it and ended up in a&e because I was so fed up I wanted to hurt myself, I'm back on It and starting to feel better it's takes time to kick in, if you think you have it go to your doctor don't leave it untreated the medication is there for a reason if you need it, I'm here for you if need to chat xx