Hi my LO is almost 3 when I had him during lockdown i was given antedepressants on the ward (the midwives had a go that I wasn't feeding baby asked me if I lobed my baby which made me feel worse) been on them ever since low, lethargic, irritable everyday, hard to smile or feel genuine pleasure or ease, and when I look back on baby photos I feel a horrible sadness over that baby no longer existing, like yes hes a toddler now but feel like i miss a baby? Is it normal? I would exercise to try and lift mood but i cant, theres no therapy nhs is shit.