Variable mood

[snoozysuzi]

Hi all, I just wondered if anyone is a bit unpredictable like myself? I have a couple of kids, had a late miscarriage in 2021 and have been a bit unstable since. I had a year on antidepressants, defo got me out the fog but the last couple months I’ve been very tearful/ overreacting/ general nightmare. After my sons birth in 2020 I don’t think I ever got back on track then losing our daughter has pushed me over the edge. I am 100x better than this time last year but will I ever go back to my old self? It’s like the baby loss has changed my personality.

Such tragic losses do change us as persons. I know my miscarriage changed me. I did go to therapy and one thing stuck with me, it was “Recovery is a journey of re-discovery” As in, part of how you feel is you are mourning your old self and in a way wishing to be you before the loss as a wish to never have experienced that loss. So when you move onto acceptance that the loss happened and it changed you, the next bit of recovering is finding out and discovering the new you- and even thinking you’re different yes but just as worthy and lovable and awesome to your family as you were before. And frankly, it’s normal and common to feel how you do, we are human and loss affects us deeply to the core and we are altered by it. Have you been offered any talking therapy at all? It’s a hard process to go through alone. Xx