losing hope, depressed

[smithyjess]

I have been so low through my pregnancy and now its getting worse. lo is 4 months old and am a single mum. She is healthy and happy and so calm, she is a dream. I feel like I'm not good enough for her. I love her so much and want the best for her but I feel I can't get that. I wish I had a big family and a nice home for her. but I'm on my own and stuck in this council flat. it is a nightmare. Some of the rooms smell of mould. My taps are leaking all the time in the kitchen. The council won't even help after so many times I have called them. I am getting help tho with feeling low. I know that is not right. My dr has referred me to talk to someone and I am meeting them next week. Anyone else feel like the world ignores you?

I hear you, I’m glad you’re getting professional input sorted. Are you managing to get out for a walk everyday by any chance? It’s a cliche but being out and trying to get in tune with the nature, though a chore to achieve, does tend to be helpful if the chore of getting ready can be gotten past. Also are there any baby groups or mum and baby coffee mornings or similar you could try?

Really feel for you, you have totally done the right thing by asking for professional help and someone to talk to. Your baby at the moment just needs her mum to be happy and healthy- then you are more than enough whether you are in a council flat or massive house. It's you she looks up at with those baby eyes- you are her world and more than good enough. It feels like so much pressure though and I totally felt that when my DD was a baby and still do at times. The thing that helped me apart from seeking professional help was going to baby groups. There were some near me that were playgroups for toddlers but did coffee and lots of mums with babies went along for the social and was good for the little babies to see the other children and some different toys for a bit. Getting out for walks is also good- anything that is a change of scenery from the same for walls was a relief for me.
Motherhood can be very lonely but hopefully you will get through this low point and find your groove ❤️

severe depression

I have been so depressed these last few weeks, I can sleep, I can’t eat. I feel my heart beating so fast, having panic attacks. I keep making the wrong decisions and I am always confused. I don’t know what to do no more I feel so stressed. This all started when may kitchen was being done and I had really bad anxiety and I ended up choosing the wrong colours and now I feel so alone. I don’t like being around people and I just want to be alone. Sometimes I just wish I was never born.