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[mamax123]

hey mums my son is 10 months old next month and i love him but i can't help but not want him i just always want to be on my own i feel so down and i tell him to shut the fuck up all the time when he's starting to cry and it makes me sick i can say that to him i have rung my gp but they have no appointments for a month any advise why i feel this way

I would seek help from friends & family urgently if you are feeling this way. Mothers have done some terrible stuff under stress.

You're tired I guess. Do you get any break from him? In no,I totally get you and please try to arrange a nanny or someone you trust to watch him just for couple of hours here and then

I am so sorry that you’re having such a hard time but it’s really good that you know that things shouldn’t feel this way. There are support groups out there with helplines that you can call if you can’t access support via your GP pandasfoundation.org.uk

Do you have a health visitor?

Mamax123
Please please contact your health visitor. Urgently. She will be able to get you the help you need.

So sorry you're feeling like this. Definitely sounds like Post natal depession. You have done the right thing by reaching out here for help and this shows how much you love your baby and just want what is best for him.
Contact your health visitor ASAP. They should have an advice line or number which would usually be in front of your sons red health book that you take along to babys immunisations.
Your local health Trust may also offer self referral therapy sessions- these would be delivered via phone, online or face.to face. Pregnsnt and post natal women in my are fast tracked for these sessions do definitrly worth googling 'self referral cbt in my area' or ' self referral therapy in my area'. Your GP may even have a self referral form on their website. Check out your local children's centre too if you have one nearby. They can often offer support.to struggling parents.

You don't mention a partner so thought it also worth mentioning that gingerbread charity offer help and support to single parents and also homestart charity offers help and support to any struggling family. Look at their websites.to see what they offer in your area.

I hope you can speak to a health visitor tomorrow and they get you linked up to services to support you. The fact you are seeking help shows what a good mum you are. Sending love and strength xx

Can you ring 111 and see if they offer any help? You sound like you could do with a bit of help even if it means taking medication....do you sleep when babies sleeping? Eat on time etc? Please be kind to yourself.