I've put this under postnatal depression but really not sure if this is what I'm actually going through.
I had my first baby girl in June of last year. I love her to absolutely bits. Obviously the first few months where really hard and I really struggled with anxiety. I think this was obviously due to the massive change in my life. My fiance was massively supportive and I couldn't have asked for better.
Fast forward 11 months and my anxiety is manageable but I just don't feel like myself at all. I work 30 hrs over 3 long days (8-6pm) and on top of this do literally everything for my daughter and do all the house work. My fiance works 7 hours more and literally doesn't lift a finger in the house or particularly do anything childcare related. He loves my daughter to bits but he really does nothing to help me.
I feel exhausted, and just really down in the dumps at the moment. I feel I've really lost myself. Not sure if this is normal having just had a baby 11 months ago?
I don't find things I used to love that exciting anymore and I just feel like im a shell of who I used to be.
My fiances family drive me insane which is another problem which I won't go into and on top of this me and my fiance just don't seem to be getting along at the moment.
Our sex life is non existent and has been for a long time now. Sex for me was never really a massive deal so it never bothered me too much but for him it is. He trys it on with me all the time but I'm just so exhausted I'm never in the mood.
I then start to wonder if there's something wrong with me. I'm on sertaline for my anxiety so this could be a factor.
I've tried speaking to him about how i feel but not sure he really understands.
I've been to my Dr about my mood and he's changed my medication but I haven't started taking it yet as I'm not sure that's the answer to my problems.
I feel like my life is like groundhog day. I feel miserable. Is this hormone related maybe ? I don't think it's postnatal depression as I love my daughter to bits. I'm exhausted but wouldn't change her for the world.