Hi all. Apologies if I ramble a bit.
I'm currently almost 31 weeks with my 2nd baby. This baby was very much planned and wanted, but over the past few weeks I've been feeling increasingly upset/fed up. This pregnancy, in complete contrast to my first which was a breeze, has been much harder (morning sickness until 25 weeks, still getting nausea now, SPD, nosebleeds, migraines, having to take aspirin and have regular scans and consultant appointments..). This is all on top of continuing to work 40 hours a week.
Thankfully baby is absolutely fine but I've been feeling increasingly fed up and tearful. I find it hard to leave the house and dread going to work which is unusual as I normally love my job! I'm exhausted in the day but can't sleep at night. Sometimes it's due to SPD or baby moving or needing to pee every 10 minutes, but sometimes I don't know why. I don't want to see family or friends as I find it mentally exhausting. I've been increasingly impatient with my 3 year old and am finding her incredibly hard work at the moment, but what 3 year old isn't? Then I feel awful for being impatient with her.
Most of the day I feel either irritated, numb, or on the verge of tears. Every day feels like groundhog day and I'm just really fucking tired and fed up.
I do have a partner who is very supportive and helps out a lot.
I've been fortunate to never have suffered mental health issues before so I have no clue if this is just normal pregnancy hormones or something that I need help with. I think just a bit of a break from everything would help massively but then I feel guilty for feeling like this when I chose to have another baby!
Sorry for rambling. Thank you if you made it this far!