Does postnatal depression ever go awa

[Kir5tyTwiggy]

I had postnatal depression with my daughter now 4 nearly 5 and since iv had her iv never been the same the old me , and I just want to be me again I have a lot going on in my life but I think I don’t help things as I’m not my happy out going self any more and I hate the person iv become and I just push people away all the time and have lost a lot of people because of it , I just feel so lost and no matter what I do to pick myself up it just does not work , I was such a out going person loads of friends and happy but now I don’t even know who I am any more

Hi OP, just want to say you shouldn't be hard on yourself, you've raised a 4 year old little girl who I'm sure is a real credit to you.
I also suffered with PND and my DS is 2, I know what you mean by the not being your old self ever again thing, but I don't with that's the depression, but more the fact you're a parent to a young child, and you'll never not be a parent again, but your child will get older, and easier (although I'm sure all ages come with their own issues), but you'll have the knowledge and wisdom behind you that you got through it and your daughter is thriving.
This time of year is hard, it's not spring yet still, it's cold, and money is tighter than before, give yourself some love, you've got your next years ahead of you yet x

Best years*

It will go away I promise your not alone no matter how much it makes you feel.. I'm nearly getting through it after a long few weeks arguing with partner his family etc luckily they know it's not been me at all! Completely messes with your head!!! Are you in anti depressants love? Xx

Thank u for ur kind words , I feel like it sort of goes but then it comes back and feel like there’s no let up with it and that I have to come to terms with it , iv tryed anti depressants but they just don’t suite me at all iv tryed so many but I do have 3 beautiful children that do keep me going x

You are doing amazing. Take each day as it comes every day is different you WILL get through it and there is good days and bad days and the bad days are horrible! It's the worst feeling I've ever had in my life when I should be enjoying it.. but yes remember your beautiful children my little one is getting me through it. Nobody will understand post natal until they've had it but like I said love, ur not alone xxxx