Is anyone else just really fed up?

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I'm 29 weeks pregnant and just been diagnosed with gestational diabetes which isn't going very well. I have a very hyperactive 17 month old who doesn't understand the meaning of no and will just climb and smash everything in sight (we are already down one TV and our Christmas tree has been destroyed several times). Boris is thinking about making people work from home and whilst I love my very sympathetic partner to the moon and back, him being home is just a nightmare for everyone as said 17 month old knows daddy is somewhere close by and amps up the crazy to 1000.

These wfm restrictions are giving me other major anxieties now on top of everything else because I just know the hospital is going to go full on OTT mode again and I'll be left to do everything on my own again. It was the worst experience of my life giving birth last time. I had diabetes back then too so I had to be induced early, and right up until I was put in the delivery room I was left on my own for about 24 hours, suffering through contractions and everything else with no support as the midwives were busy (it was a very busy month for births apparently). As a new mother it scared me something chronic and I just feel all though anxieties now flooding back in since the watching the news... I ended being in the hospital 3 days and aside from the delivery room where my partner had to leave an hour after the baby was born, I was on my own and it wasn't a pleasant experience at all.

I thought it would be different this time but obviously not.

I just don't know what to do or think anymore. I'm anemic to top it all off so going out for walks and to the park isnt a luxury I can afford to do every day, so on the days we're stuck inside I'm struggling and it eats me up with guilt. I feel so shit and stuck and there is nothing I can do to change my situation. It is just making me so unbelievably sad.

I'm not depressed and never have been so having all these inescapable and incurable issues thrown in my face is really messing with me as I just don't know how to process them all.

Sorry to hear this. Are you getting some help with the 17month old- do you have any funds you could use for some childcare for a couple of days a week? Also have you discuss your birth with your midwife- what happened last time and what the plan is this time? Having suffered one induction which led to an EMCS after a day in labour I went straight to an EMCS the next time- it might not be for you but i though it was brilliant (I was out of hospital less than 24 hours later feeling fine). Regardless of your choice you absolutely shouldn’t be left alone again. Will your Dh be with you? Gestational diabetes can be a bugger but there is a brilliant Facebook group and website which is really useful and supportive- and loads of great recipes. It sounds to me as though if you start getting that under control everything else might feel a bit more do-able? Hang in there, it will get better!