Post natal depression driving me mad

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My twins are 1 and every month it's like my depression has gotten worse, my family (including husband) try to help but none of them seem to get it. They all keep telling me I need time away from the twins for myself but the problem is I work and study so I don't have time for me just now. And I'm feeling so snowed under I don't know what to do, I've found myself crying a lot today and I'm feeling incredibly alone. What do you do on days like these?

Hi, I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so down. I also have days like this where everything just gets on top of me and the tears won't stop. I find going out for a short walk myself helps or even a nice bath at the end of the day when my baby is asleep.

Sometimes it feels really hard to make time for yourself but it is important that you do, even if it is just for 1 hour

Can you speak to your gp about feeling depressed and that it is getting worse?

MB58 I have spoken to the doctors but they're either not paying attention when I try to talk to them or they're useless.

Currently I love walking to work because I get to listen to audio books and zone the rest of the world out. But these down days are really getting to me.

Ah, Sorry to hear that. Is your health visitor still in touch? I've not heard anything from mine for the last 6 months mind you but if you are in touch with yours could you mention it to them?

Two one year olds is enough without working and studying. Is the studying long term?
I would try to postpone something until you have more time, the DCs are older.

It sounds counterintuitive but perhaps mindfulness when you are walking to work would do more for you than audiobooks. I know that I go on MN or listen to audiobooks (which I love) to get away from thinking about stuff. But it isn't really calming. You have so much on your plate.

Perhaps it's you who's not listening or understanding. Are they telling you to lighten your load? Because that's what you need to do. You need to ditch work and/or study. Can you reduce your hours at work or hold off on the studying until the kids are a bit older. Something has to give, you can't do it all.