Not sure if its just my hormones or postnatal.
My baby is 4 weeks old (love being mommy), I felt for a few weeks after birth i needed to hurt myself which is strange because it isnt me, had depression before pregnancy but never felt that way, but that feeling went away 2 weeks after birth but now I'm heading in the direction to ruin my relationship because since having baby, my heads telling me i can't trust my dp and its taking over my life.
He's a good man and ive never had any problems before but since ive gave birth aswell as feeling horrible with my imagine (only got a stone to lose until im pre pregnancy) i feel although im not good enough anymore .
Sex was always a big thing for both of us before preg and we both have high sex drives, because my birth was so traumatic (episiotomy and forcep) it may be a long way until i recover and this also makes me worried he'll stray.
Hes said comments recently and i can't help but analyse them over and over in my head, one comment being he doesn't want to have sex again after seeing my 'down there' during birth, i know its a joke as we have that kind of relationship but because of how im feeling, its making me feel like im disgusting after having a baby and its taking over my enjoyment with my little one.
I feel asthough i can't talk to him because i dont know how to bring it up as its just me and my head and i also dont want to go down the anti depressants route again.
Please be kind as stupid as i may come across. I need a little advice or similar stories