Hi
Don't know where to start with this but please be kind. Ive just found out Im in the early stages of pregnancy with my second child. We had been trying from the start of the year so very lucky it happened so quickly.
I want to be happy and excited but I just feel so down and not looking forward to the whole pregnancy, birth and newborn stage. I had postnatal with my last but let it go too long and he was 18 months before I went on antidepressants. I then came off them before we tried to conceive (was only on a few months but did feel a lot better albeit a bit numb). Im
having thoughts that I dont want to have the baby as Im not sure I can go through it all again but then I know its only hard for a short while and I do want my DD to have a sibling.
Im having really irrational thoughts that my partner will cheat and we will break up and ill be a single parent to two kids. Our relationship has been rocky from the get go and we almost split up in January. We have battled through and want to make it work as we do love each-other.
I feel a lot of resentment and don't want to be around him or for him to touch me.
Im hoping after 1st semester hormones ill feel better and things will settle.
Any advice appreciated. Im not keen on the thought of going on antidepressants whilst pregnant.
Thanks