I am so depressed too, the lockdown has a great impact too. As a migrant from young age, I struggled with living but now I have 2 kids. My partner is really good man who earns all the money for the family and worked like hell. I know I should pick myself up and back him up. but the feeling of useless me and hopeless life just knocked me down and I feel like drowned in the down moods. worries almost ate me up, but I dont know how to stop it. i have been to therapies before and they were helpful only for a while but doesnt really stop me from low moods. the moods just came back every now and then it is killing me. what shall i do lord i only wish my kids wont have to go through what i go through in the future.
i have come to this country with my parents when i was younger about 17 years old, i didnt finish my education I couldnt do much work I dont know how to do make up i dont like cooking I have no enthurism for life most of the time. just so miserable pitty on myself all day long which I know wont help with anything but make things worse.but I just cant help myself out of this, feel guilty all the time not being able to do proper job and my partner takes all the burden. the guilt just wouldnt go away