I'm 13 weeks pregnant, my first trimester has been an absolute nightmare in terms of mood swings, being frustrated and not feeling myself. I had a few good days last weekend and felt really positive and my partner said I seemed to be myself, however the last three days I have just been inconsolable. I saw my baby at the 12 week scan and felt absolutely nothing towards it, I wasn't excited. My partner hasn't been very emotionally supportive at all and it's not his first child so I was under the impression he'd kinda know how to deal with it. He's said that his feelings have changed towards me in the past couple of months which I feel is unfair because I have been going through a lot? I am totally trapped because I just keep having invasive thoughts or self harm and suicide and I can not stop crying, I just feel as though he doesn't care and no one cares about me or my unborn child. He's just not bothered. I wanted to go stay with my parents but I can't keep a brave face and I don't want them to know that anything is wrong because they're so excited to be grandparents but I just feel as though I'm making a huge mistake. Before I became pregnant my partner was so excited, he kept saying how badly he wanted a baby with me and asked if we could try and of course I wanted one too so we decided to try for a baby but ever since I've become pregnant he literally just isn't bothered??? I am a mess, just feel like a huge burden and I'm completely lost and I feel so isolated, I have no one I can talk to about this. I'm scared I'll have to look into the eyes of my child in the future knowing that I felt this way about them and I didn't even want them and wanted to harm them?? I can't find any immediate help and I really don't know what to do? Is this normal??
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