Almost 18 Months in & Struggling

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My little one will be 18 months on Christmas Day. He is a really good boy, does have his moments, but generally is good and happy.
I feel awful saying this, but I am finding Motherhood and my new "life" now he is here really really hard. I just don't want to do it and often wonder why I thought having a child would be a good idea?!

I have struggled with feeling connected to my little boy - I appreciate he is cute, lovely and I care for him deeply, but have never felt this overwhelming love that people describe.
Where have I gone wrong??

I feel very alone with how I feel and wondered if anyone else feels the same?

Most days I want to cry and run away 🙁

I don’t think it would be permanent mine only lasted a week or so, though I grind my teeth in my sleep too, irrespective of the meds 😫😫 if you do decide to come off them defo do it with the help of the doctor and never stop taking ADs cold turkey as you can feel even worse, they’d prob say to take one every other day for a week, then one every three days etc. Hopefully you start to feel ok on them soon x

@Fullmoonparty That's reassuring, hopefully it will settle down soon.
Hopefully it won't happen again once I up the dose to the 50mg x