Struggling to carry on

[peonies1988]

I had PPD and PPA with my first baby and was admitted to the mother and baby unit and I’m 9.5 weeks in with my second baby and honestly don’t want to carry on anymore. I know that being in the MBU doesn’t actually help so that’s pointless. My daughter cries all day every day and we have tried literally everything. She’s on neocate for CMPA, reflux medication, probiotics etc. Nothing helps. My marriage is in tatters, my mother is horrible and other than my toddler who I adore, I just feel like I’ve really had enough. I don’t really know why I’m writing this except to see if anyone else here has ever felt this and come through it? Because it doesn’t feel like I ever will. I’ve told my husband how I feel but he just says he’s struggling too.

I am so sorry you're experiencing this. Are you on any medication at all or receiving therapy? Some baby groups are still running at the moment which could help, I remember when I was unwell with my son getting out of the house was the main thing that helped. How old is your eldest? Sending lots of love, I have been there and am currently pregnant with my second x

Thanks for commenting @abitfunny. I’m on medication yes. My daughter is now 2.5 and I really struggled with PND with her too so I do know it gets better, it just doesn’t feel like it when you’re in the throes of it. Wishing you all the best with your pregnancy and little one x

This sounds really hard. It won’t last forever. I had a second that cried all the time and from 3 months on he got a lot better as his digestive problems improved. He’s now a completely gorgeous toddler too. So it does get better.

However PND is not a logical condition. Can you speak to your GP and health visitor for some support? Is there a relative that could give too a break? Caring for the vulnerable is allowed under lockdown rules and you sound vulnerable.