I had my daughter almost 3 months ago and since ive had terrible postnatal depression. I had a difficult labor, i had contractions for four days and went to hospital 3 times just to be sent home with pain meds that didnt work. When i eventually had her i ha d to have an episotom y and since then i cant bear to touch down there or be touched. Ive struggled to comfort her when shes upset because this depression ha s put up a barrie r. Im on 100mg sertraline and have phone councelling but becausr of the situation i cant actually see anyone face to face. Im trying so hard but feels like the people around me are having a go at me for feeking like this and expect me to be able to cope.