After several weeks of being emotional/tears/irritable and not feeling myself I am concluding I have PND. I was referred to perinatal mental health in pregnancy due to ast MH issues, and I know whey will reassess me if I contact them. I just feel like what is the point? I work in mental health myself, and I feel this is making me feel more hopeless, because I know what I would say to my clients and feel what I think would be most helpful probably won’t be offered to me. Though I guess knowing the system may help? I just feel hopeless that there’s any help out there. I don’t know what I want to be different or what could be different, realistically. I love my son more than anything. I wish I didn’t have to deal with anyone else’s expectations or wishes and could just focus on me and him and not always feel guilty for letting other people down. Started having self harm thoughts again for the first time in a good few years.
I don’t know why I’m posting. I feel very lonely, but I shouldn’t really. My husband and family are supportive, they just don’t get it.
I really don’t know what to do.