Is it postnatal depression?

[Anca04]

Hello everyone,

Since I have had by baby, 1 year and 2 months ago, I have been feeling very lonely and worthless. Like I am failing at being a good mum and I am very dissapointed with myself as I always thought that I will be an amazing mum as I really wished to have my baby ( previously suffered 2 misccariages). I have been through a lot I would say as when I was pregnant my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer so this has been a shock, my breastfeeding experience has been very bad and I felt anxious and frustrated and after giving birth I found out that I have gallstones. This past year I felt more irritated that I ever felt. I also struggled to cope with being a mum and constantly blame myself for being a bad mum who has no patience and who shouts at her child. Oh God I feel horrible. I was thinking on many occasions to ask for help but I felt scared. I just wish I was excited to have my daughter as I love her a lot but I cannot stop feeling low and worthless and lonely

It does. I'm a new mum. It's hard. It's a huge change in your identity. Don't be afraid to ask for help.
You've always got to remember, you're doing an amazing job. Don't dwell on the bad moments. Babies are really are work.

I've found other mums can be really unsupportive. And find it's better if I don't compare my situation to others.

It's probably worth seeing you gp or health visitor.

Please talk to someone. You don’t have to feel this way, you’re not a bad mum and you deserve to be happy, go get help from your hv or gp. Just remember postnatal depression doesn’t always kick in straight after birth so it’s not abnormal for you to be experiencing it still this late on.

Thank you the support mums. I think I will talk to the GP to ask for help. It's better to get it sorted.