Hello everyone,
I don't use this platform very often but I am finding myself struggling with parenthood. My daughter arrived 2 months early after an extremely complicated pregnancy and it took me a while to bond with her. I had a love for her, I just didn't feel like she was mine. This resolved after about 4 weeks which is great but I still feel like I have a lot of trauma over the whole experience even though she is 9 months old now. Just to add, after bringing my child home after 5 weeks we had awful communication with the hospital to the midwives and health visitors with them not turning up for 10 days and then discharging me and her after one visit.
I find myself stressed constantly, always feeling down and angry, taking this out on my partner constantly and putting a strain on our relationship. He is very supportive but for some unknown reason my parents who used to love him, constantly make digs about him having a football season ticket and seeing his friends once a week which I don't have a problem with and their attitude makes me feel more pressured in myself.
I don't feel like I've ever truly recovered from that experience, I have 2 close friends with babies who constantly tell me how calm and chilled I was through it all including now.
I go back to work in 10 days and just feel like my pressures and stresses are getting more heightened.
I wondered really if I may have PND or if I'm just in my head all of the time. I'm not even sure why i posted this but any advice would be helpful thank you.