Hi,
Im new to this. I don't know if I should really even be writing on this site.
But, I feel like I need to talk to someone I don't know personally. So please don't judge me.
I am a 30year mum to two beautiful children who I love dearly.
I'm mostly home alone with them as my partner travels for work and is away more then he is home - this doesn't bother me, I enjoy being home alone with my children - and just cuddling them, doing homework, dinner, baths, play dates, clubs and after school activities. I pride myself in making sure they experience different things and learn and grow as individuals.
But lately I just feel like a bad mom. I don't know why - I just feel like I'm doing everything wrong. I feel like when I shout and tell them off I'm being unfair, and they are growing up with an unfit mom.
Or when I'm tired (I wake up at 4:30 every morning with my youngest)) that my eldest gets upset when I don't want to play constantly, or when I put the youngest one down for bed, I don't give my eldest my full attention until their bedtime as I just need to sit and rest (is that selfish?)
Basically I just feel like I'm failing as a mom.
I know deep down it's not true, I know they love me. And I love them. But I just can't help but feel like I'm doing everything wrong.
I just want them to be happy, and do feel safe and to have everything I had growing up.
Does anyone else ever feel like this?