I think I have PND but I'm not entirely sure.
I have a 2 month old. Spend a lot of nights crying but hide this from DH (I know I shouldn't). I suffer from anxiety already and also OCD. My anxiety is massively heightened. I spend 60% of my time not enjoying my son's milestones as I'm sad that he's going to grow up and I'll no longer have a newborn. I cried when I realised that one day I would no longer breastfeed. I then feel exceptionally guilty when I wonder if it would've been easier if I just didn't have a child. It's like I love him in this tiny form too much.
I feel extremely low.
What do I do? Can anyone help me? I'm scared to go to the doctors as it's just another mental health condition to add to the list.
I feel like I'm falling apart at the seams.