DS is 10 months and I have PND. I first went to the GP when he was 4 months, got given some antidepressants but didn't get on with them so tried to go it alone. I was due back at work last month but couldn't face it and had to admit that I'm still massively struggling. So I'm signed off until the middle of the month before my review.
I'm snappy and shouty to my DP and our kids. I cry all the time. I walk around in a fog and generally feed emotionally numb. I absolutely could not function in my very public facing job role.
I'd probably benefit from counselling or CBT except that I have no childcare as DP is self employed and always working. So I'm still just bobbing along with no one to talk to. My relationship with DP is practically in tatters at the minute due to my PND and his lack of empathy or help. He thinks I'm being a mega bitch and find it hard to speak with me because I always snap.
I also have an absolute shit tonne of other personal stuff going on which does not help and again have nobody IRL to speak to.
Anyway, my long term friend who was kind of a father figure to me passed away yesterday. It was sudden and it has hit me like a ton of bricks.
I haven't felt this much emotional pain since my nan died (which coincidentally triggered a bout of depression). How the heck am I supposed to deal with this right now? Im a wreck. I can barely function as it is. Anyone else been through this? I just want to feel like me again.