Been on here few times before this pregnancy and last with utter nightmare antenatal anxiety. Had thought this week things were going better: just felt quite tense all the time like I had a big deadline coming up not tearful and despairing which might sound bad but felt like progress! Doing my mindfulness and CBT and healthy food exercise and sleep with the commitment of a religious fantastic and was feeling almost well enough to start the ADs (been advised to start when feeling steadier as first couple of weeks can be destabilising) Now feel like at square one. Been told by a perinatal psychiatrist my anxiety will not be harming baby as cortisol and adrenaline filtered by placenta and another expert who I emailed (yup, really doing normal things like emailing American fetal behaviour specialists) that anxiety and cortisol don’t even really correlate in way we fear but so much stuff out there about need to control stress and makes me feel like letting the bean down and so guilty. Every time am reassured for a bit the anxiety finds a new angle. Please tell me psychiatrists know better than me, no need to second guess them and that am being a total knob?!