Hi im currently suffering with postnatal depression and anxiety and taking AD at the moment which started to helo then i felt better n tried to wean myself off and gone down again! and although i love my baby so much i dont feel like im ever gonna stop feeling like this and im never gonna be able to be the mom i want to be to her i know i love her so much and shes so good but some days i just feel no emotion at all my partner gets easily frustrated with me but im also holding onto some guilt from the past which makes me think maybe i deserve to feel like this me and my partner went through a rough patch when we had been together about 3 years he was always out and left me alone alot was always calling me names and ruining our home so i had enough and we pretty much split up but were still living together he was going to move out and i slept with someone else and then my partner changed and wanted another chance and it went back to how we were when we met i felt like he really loved me and i realised i never wanted to be with anyone else but i never told him abiut the other guy and 2years on we have a beautiful 6 month old and i feel like i dont deserve either of them because of what i did i cant tell him as it would ruin everythig and he would be heartbroke we have both changed so much since then at 21 and i havent thought about it at all until suffering with postnatal depression and anxiety, im so desperate i feel so lost in myself please give me some advice on how to handle these feelings i feel like such a terrible person