Hi,
Just wanted to share my feelings as I'm sure I'm not alone and I know it helps to hear others are suffering too. I'm ten weeks pregnant with a very much wanted baby and a kind, loving, patient partner - but am struggling to feel anything other than utterly hopeless. I feel totally detached from whatever is growing inside me, I feel strangely repulsed at the sight, sound and thought of my poor partner, which is just bizarre, and making me feel so panicky that I am with the wrong person and had just never realised it until now?! We've been together over ten years. I feel sluggish like never before and can't even muster the energy to swim or do yoga, both of which I love and used to do daily. I feel terrified that I will spend the next ten years feeling like this, stuck at home exhausted with no motivation to do anything and, dare I say it, resentful of my baby and partner? Even things I used to look forward to now bring me nothing but dread and anxiety... if not even those precious things in life bring me any happiness then what will? I can only hope this feeling lifts after twelve weeks. I hope other mummies out there are having a better time, or, if feeling like me, that there is some comfort in knowing you're not alone xxx