Hello, I'm a first time mum and I'm really struggling with my feelings. At 35 weeks I was admitted to hospital after having pre-eclampsia and they made the decision to induce. It took them one week to do this after using all three induction techniques (in the wrong order why is why it took so long) but there was a lot of waiting around as they were short staffed etc. I was taken up onto the labour ward and my waters broken. After hours of being in labour I wasn't progressing and my baby's heart rate kept decreasing which eventually prompted them to give me an emergency c section after hours of deliberation. During the c section the block failed and I felt everything and had to be put to sleep. I didn't get that bonding time with my baby and I woke to see my husband and my mother in law changing his nappy etc and I couldn't due to feeling unwell. I'm finding it hard now to bond with him and I feel so guilty about it. I love him but I didn't have that overwhelming feeling that people say they have. When he has really bad nights and doesn't sleep I feel that I've made a mistake. I'm feeling so guilty for the way I feel as he was planned but I feel at the moment that it won't get easier. I plucked up the courage to tell my DH how I'm feeling and he is supportive and says it's because I'm tired etc but to speak with HV. Just wondering if this is normal or do I have PPD? Thanks in advance.