Just that really. Have been asking for help with intrusive thoughts since mid pregnancy. DD now 5 months old and the GP tried to make a social services referral without telling me. Only found out today when the mental health crisis team (who I am finally seeing after literally begging for over 8 months) informed me. I needed help with my mental health. I made it clear I would never act on my ITs but desperately wanted help to either not be having them in the first place or to find a way that made them less distressing. Now I feel like I have to choose between keeping my daughter and keeping my sanity.