I'm on my third pregnancy and it's been physically very hard. I had hyperemesis gravidarum and various infections plus anaemia and exhaustion. I have two children under 4 to care for. I couldn't work all pregnancy as I was too ill. I feel I lost everything, I couldn't care for my kids properly and I could hardly get out. For the first four months I was practically bed bound. I've felt sick every single day and I'm now 8 months pregnant, I've forgotten what it's like to feel ok.
I've had terrible antenatal care: never seen the same midwife twice and every time I have to repeat the same old story about how ill I've been and how upset I feel yet they just write in my notes that all is well. It's a joke and a waste of time.
Today I spent an hour waiting for my midwife at the surgery with my two children running wild with boredom till I couldn't cope any more and had to leave. I feel it's a complete waste of time anyway and feel completely unsupported. I'm crying a lot and keep yelling at my children.
What shall I do? Am I going to be ok?