Well, I guess that's the question. I'm currently 28 weeks with my 3rd and I can't do this. I wish I had had an abortion. I hate everything about being pregnant this time. I hate having a bump, I hate the feeling of it moving. I can't stand myself.
I went to gp last week and had a complete meltdown and started on citalopram which makes me just want to sleep all day and then have horrible nights.
I just want it to not exist. I don't want another one. I had a life that was just coming together, a nice house, a lovely husband and 2 children that I was coping with. I have a good job, and we are just about making it work financially. Now this. I'm going to have to go back to working 60 hours a week to pay childcare. What's the point? My life is over. I'm exhausted already with everything.
My husband just doesn't get it, all he says is how 'sexy' I look with a bump. I want to hit him when he says that.
I've also had an underlying eating disorder for many years that has really flared up again this pregnancy, and so far I have managed to lose weight- which I am horribly okay with.
God I'm a horrible person. My life is just a sodding mess.any help would be nice.
And yes, I'm fully expecting to be completely hated for everything I've written.