Well we're do I start..
when I was pregnant me and my partner decided to move out of my dad's flat as we was all getting under each other's feet ect..
when I was 5 months pregnant my dad took a overdose and killed himself... He was left on his own and I can't help but blame myself.. my mum had an affair and split the family up basically and me always been a daddy's girl I went and lived with him.. It has been 10 months and I thought I was getting better emotionally but I keep falling back down. . I don't know weather this is postnatal or just depressed. Or maybe just grieving but my life just feels like it's going so wrong and I have the most precious gift in the world my little girl.. my partner isn't very supportive.. well he does try but I'm just always having a go at him and pushing him away..
The man my mum is with (who she had a affair with ) has 2 sons and he was with a woman before.. well she has just passed away too and it felt like my dad died all over again.. I didn't really get on with her because she didn't take the affair well and always kind of had a go at me and her children but I just feel so terrible for her sons.. I mean my dad then their mum.. In the past 10 months. It is a horrible situation.. my mum is a alocoholic to and her partner im scared in the next 10 months she could be gone too.. feel like my head could explode any minute.. and all my emotions are causing so many arguments between me and my partner.. I just wish I could be happy and me again I was so bubbly and now I just stay in the house all the time and everything I do feels like a chore.. my baby is 6 months and I want to get better for her!!
please help I need some advice what to do 
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