13 days post natal. Feeling overwhelmed and need to get it all out. Baby is feeding well now after initial struggle due to jaundice but I feel worn down by breastfeeding and don't feel amazing as I was told I would. I can't ever decide if I should wake him to feed or not! He normally goes 3h and wakes himself for feeds but when he goes longer I don't know what to do. I keep crying over things like the pph after his birth, being unable to remember things from the birth/after the birth, being stitched up. Someone close made a comment about how I shouldn't have had stitches and I was confused and feel like a failure about having had them. worried I won't be able to have sex anymore due to stitching and worrying that the wound will open while we are trying to do it. Can't decide if there's an infection there due to a smell but can't decide if it's just a normal lochia smell. decided I'm not having any more children already due to pph trauma. Just generally tired even though I get a fair bit of sleep. I can't take my eyes off him and feel guilty if I do. Need to tidy the house but can't decide if I'm allowed to look away from him to do it. Not sure what to do when he's just awake and not feeding, if I should be playing with him somehow but he's only 13 days old!
I imagine these are normal ftm worries but I really am desperate for reassurance. Please?
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Holden10 · 09/06/2015 14:42
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