31 weeks pregnant with identical girls.
I'd been with my OH around 10 months before i fell pregnant unplanned. He wasn't over the moon and did tell me to keep my options open. I decided i was keeping them as termination wasn't something i agreed with. He came around and all was okish although he only came to 1 scan.
We hadn't lived together yet but moved in ready for our little family and our relationship was fine. I quickly realised i was the only person buying everything for the house (material things) i do all the house work. Cooking. Shopping and not had a penny towards all i've bought for the kids already. Which totals up to around £1000 so far. I pay half of the rent. Council tax. Shopping and try and buy a few things for the kids every month to make it cheaper for me.
We've been together around 15-16 months now and of course still adapting to living together but i do everything and buy everything. My dad had a terrible stroke in october when i was around 3-4 weeks pregnant and seemed to make a good recovery but recently i've noticed he's gone downhill because he can't work and he's a proud man. His hands and head shake a lot.
Over the last couple of weeks i've too gone downhill. I wake in the night worrying about finances (Although i'm not in debt) i'll struggle when my maternity kicks in- i worry about getting everything sorted for my babies in time i've got 5 weeks left And i spend so much time just thinking in my new house my heart races and i feel anxious. I'm physically drained and feel emotionally unstable (i've never had problems with mental health before) i've cried for the last 5 days and feel sick. I'm starting to hate this new house and only feel relaxed in my parents house.
I don't know what to do!