PND again

[LittleBearPad]

Bugger! I'm sitting in the doctors surgery waiting for my appointment to no doubt be told I've got PND again.

I thought I was doing ok but I'm not. Was hit by a wave of tearfulness earlier today and can't stop crying. DS is 8 weeks old on Thursday, was diagnosed at exactly the same point last time. I was so worried about this - DM kept telling me I'd be ok but to go to the doctors if I was worried. I have a DD (2.9) I don't want her to see mummy crying or shouting. It's not fair.

DH said I'm doing better this time because I'm getting out. Got shouted at that I don't have a choice with two children and a tiny flat I have to get out or go stir crazy. Fuck it.

How did your appointment go little bear? I totally relate to that feeling of "not again"! I was diagnosed with post natal anxiety for the second time with DD3, who was born in September. First time was with DD2 at 10 weeks and same at 10 weeks this time too. I am therefore convinced its primarily hormonal. I have to say as unpleasant as it was second time round, it was so much less frightening, as I knew what it was and knew I would recover. Wishing you a speedy recovery too

Thank you. I know where you're coming from.

I have a prescription for serrtraline and am seeing the GP next week again.

Good for you for recognizing and getting the help you need.

Congratulations on your new DS.

Do you like your GP?

Hey there! I also have PND for a second time with second DC. I was totally gutted, it seemed so unfair that I'd been cheated out of the blissful baby thing a second time. I was actually more scared the second time as the first time round I had suicide as an option (I didnt - but that's how I felt).
However! I saw the doctor, I got put back on medication and am now having counselling. I am much better. I got better more quickly than before.

You will feel better. Just be kind to yourself while you are waiting for the drugs to work. Going out is a good idea, but don't be too ambitious. A stroll around the block or a visit to someone's house can be really helpful. Don't beat yourself up about shouting or crying sometimes - everyone does it, even those without PND.
PND is really horrible, but you will feel better.

Good luck xxx

Thank you all. X