I've suffered with depression since late teens. Nothing really triggered it, iv been on Prozac for two years and obviously since becoming pregnant I can't take them, I'm waiting for an appointment with a mental health professional. My doctor thinks I could be suffering with bipolar but he can't personally diagnose it. I feel down alot, and now and before I will have these outbursts were I'm stressed, I get angry over little things and often throw a tantrum ... It feels awful. But I always make sure I'm away from my first born. She never sees me have a little turn and I've been complimented on how well she's been brought up and what a lovely lady she is turning out to be. I don't want people to think im a bad mum!
Since coming off my tablets, I thought I was coping really well. But its creeping back, I'm having my moments of stress over nothing, Iv lost interest in so much, I'm not excited for things I was excited about. I feel awful. Work is stressing me out, I used to love it, but now the idea of it makes me cry before my shift... And after it. But I can't put my finger on what it is about work that makes me feel that way.
Iv been told I might be able to get signed off, but no one knows I suffer with depression and I'd find it really hardto tell anyone, especially in fear that they'll think all of a sudden I can't work because I'm being silly.
Sorry for rambling, just feel like getting how I feel out there in the hopes someone can make me smile today and make me feel better. :)