Why am I always upset ?!

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I had my beautiful boy almost 5 months ago. After a lot of stress upto 3 months with reflux , he is such a happy baby and now sleeps through.

I have a dd who is at school in the day and I am at home with ds until dp gets home at about 5:30-6.

For the last few weeks iv found myself upset for no apparent reason , crying when dp asks me if some things wrong. I feel like I don't really want to be around people that are not immediate family. I am upset about my weight but I know I am not 'fat'
I keep having dreams that my dp is cheating on me and that I'm arguing with other family members. I feel like people dislike me but they have not actually done anything for me to feel like this and like a switch I will suddenly think get a grip your being silly!
I have just cried on the phone to dp because he asked if I was ok and then because I was upset and couldn't talk he got annoyed and just said I'll see you when I get back and out the phone down

wondering if this seems enough to seek medical advise ?

Sorry to hear you're feeling so low. It's probably worth having a chat with your HV or GP and telling them how you feel. Being a mum is hard at the best of times and even if your baby is now happy and sleeping through it doesn't always stop the worry especially because you were coping with reflux in the early days. Sounds like you're a bit isolated too. Your HV or GP will be able to talk it through with you and give you some support. They'll also monitor you for PND and if you and they are worried about it they will help you.

Thank you for taking the time to reply . I put off going to see the gp because I think tomorrow will be better .
And I feel if I tell people they'll think I'm being silly

Hi OP, I'm going to be a bit frank here and suggest you see your GP as it sounds like you have PND. I felt much the same as you & it took me over a year to go to the GP and I regret not going sooner. Is your DP supportive (emotionally if not physically)? I think you need to speak to him too. Some kind of CBT counselling may well help with the negative feelings you're having re other people disliking you.

Please remember that you're not alone and although you may feel silly at going to the Gp, you're not at all and the sooner you go the better.

Good luck!

My dp is supportive when he realises something is wrong . He's never been one to talk about feelings although he will listen to me talk if I ever do . He tries hard because he knows I don't like being on my own . whether I have ds with me or not , it's not that I don't want to be alone with him. dp will try and get home from work earlier if he is able to . And will also cancel stuff he has planned if I'm having an off day .

I wouldn't even know where to start with seeing the gp. what I would say even as I know ill just cry like I do when I talk about it . Although I do have a lovely female gp who helped with my ds when he had reflux when no other gp would listen and just told me it was colic !

All you need to do is tell your GP what you said to us. Print it out if it helps. They will listen and they won't think you're silly. PND affects many many women and the sooner you get help, the quicker you get better. V hard to take the first step but you've already started just by posting here.