am i being daft?

[teasleromani123]

My name is Emma and I have 2 children 1boy 1girl :)................

My family and I don't get on because they caused me so much stress and anger and nearly lost my husband over it! too much to put down in words, if I did I would be here for ages and there would be about 50pages long!!! anyway I had a premature baby at 28wks she was in hospital for 3months and only got to see her once a week which was hard.. I have no family or friends where I live because of my family spreading lies about me and my partner.....
my family haven't seen my baby girl at all she is now 9 months old they didn't even know I was pregnant!!
I have also had 2 miscarriages which all my family could say was its for the best!!
everything seems to be getting on top of me.
I don't seem to boned with my daughter as much as I have my son! which kills me... what should or can I do to forget everything and love and live life??? this could just be because im 4weeks pregs and my hormones are all over the place :L but I feel low and sad and evil :? what help you guys got for me :)
many thanks x

You are probably simply worn out and to decide on another pregnancy again so soon must be hard. It can be difficult to bond with prem babies, many people experience this, can you discuss it with your GP as you might need help. Do you have any time or opportunity to make friends where you are?

hello rosh I don't have any friends where I am because my family have spread so many lies about me when all I do is try to help them all when they are all in trouble,
at the end of the day im 19 years old with 2 children and another on the way, I have had 2 miscarriages and not one of my family ask how I am or hows my kids or how my husband.

at the age of 11 my mum left my dad because he used to beat her(my mum also used to beat me :( ) and after my mum left my dad started on the beer everyday, so me being the only one that could cook, change nappies, clean etc. AT THE AGE OF 11 I left school to look after my 2 brothers and 3 sisters. baby sat everyday and everynight...

last year my dad got arrested for beating a woman up and got sentenced for 6 months, my younger brothers and sisters got put in my care,, I got a phone call off social services saying my mum wants my brothers and sisters going into care because she doesn't think I can look after them :O even tho I looked after them since I was 11,, so they went into care... my dad came out of prison and told everyone that I PUT them into care! (LIE) and also that I pinched £500 off him (he has never seen that much money in his life ....LIE...) and all the stupid people around my town believe him !! I am sick of being called the bad one ALL I AM TRYING TO ID HELP!!!
anyway rant over
I do try to go to these baby groups with my kids but evry week I gotta go to the hospital for my prem baby to see consultant and have injections ECT.
SO SORRY FOR RANTING BUT I NEED TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST

One thing you must do is use contraception and not just keep on having more, your life will be chaotic and a lot of drudgery otherwise. I think also that you should separate from anyone in your family that makes life worse for you.