Hi. This is my first post here so I hope i get it right with protocol etc.... I would like a bit of advice. I am 24 weeks pregnant and all has been going well. I was diagnosed with plecenta previa major at my 20 week scan. My Husband and I were shocked and I was quite distressed being told that I would have to go into hospital for a number of weeks and have a c-section under general anaesthetic.
I have accepted this and have got on with pregnancy, and my busy job.......... feeling excited about baby to come. Last couple of weeks I have started feeling low and now feel that the bond i had with unborn child has gone. I have had moments of wishing i wasn't pregnant and being really frightened about how i'm going to cope.
People i meet say things like, 'you must be so excited' and 'oh, 'i love being pregnant' and i don't feel like that at the moment. I don't know what i am supposed to feel. I tried to speak to my mum but she didnt really want to talk about it.
I have a cold and sore throat so have an excuse for a day off.
I feel really cross with my husband who although he really works hard and is a good man, I don't feel that he always recognises what i need. I have been picking him up and dropping him off to work for a long time as his motorbike has broken and I told him yesterday that I am absolutely fed up with this and finding it exhausting. We can easily afford to fix it, he just hasn't go around to it. He is telling me i am behaving like a spoilt child. I tried to explain to him last night that i was feeling scared about the pregnancy and worried about the changes ahead. He said he was worried too and basically has said I am selfish. We have had ups and downs during times of pressure. He has an incredibly demanding job which i nkow is a source of stress for him but i feel like i need some help to nurture this little person and myself.
He will get frustrated about silly things....for instance on Saturday a teaspoon that has fallen in the overflow thing in the belfast sink set him off on a rant!! Normally i can laugh about that kind of thing but at the moment i feel exhausted and ground down and low.
I don't want to get up out of bed, i want to stay here and cry......
I feel quite isolated too as we moved 6 months ago and i'm just building new networks etc. At the moment i feel unsupported and worried. Thanks for listening. It helps just to have somewhere to say it all.