Hi,
My DD is 4 weeks + 3 days and I've been suffering from baby blues/depression since the birth. The first two weeks were the worst but I still feel anxious and hopeless most of the time. I feel trapped and miss my "old life". I make an effort to get out of the house every day and meet my friends etc, but feel like I can't really enjoy anything that I used to find fun and relaxing. I have spoken to my HV and GP and they've referred me to the PND service. I'm currently on a waiting list for one to one counselling and will start baby massage classes on Thursday. I also have a wonderful DP and family and friends who are all very understanding and supportive. I do have some better days but in general I feel low and scared that I will never be happy again or able to enjoy motherhood.
I'd have so much more to write but I'm feeling really tired so will have to keep it brief. Anyway, I just wanted to ask if anyone could give me some advice on whether I should start taking antidepressants? I'm reluctant to take them as I'm breastfeeding and feel like I should be able to manage this without medication, but on the other hand if they really help then it might be better to start taking them sooner rather than later. How do they make you feel? And how soon do you start feeling better?