I'm at home on day 2 with my new baby. Had a horrible birth experience, after planing a home water birth labour took 42 hours then had to be induced and have forceps and ended up with a really bad tear, loads of stitches. In hospital I had problems breastfeeding, I've managed a few feeds since getting home but not enough, so baby won't sleep as he's always hungry. Midwives in hospital were so horrible they kept coming and trying to force baby to feed, calling him lazy and a rat bag and then saying I would have to come back to hosp if I couldn't feed him at home.
I never want to go back to that hospital again it was awful.
I'm just in so much pain from the stitches and so exhausted, literally had about 4 hours sleep total since labour started 5 days ago. Even when baby does sleep I'm too on edge waiting for him to wake up again so I can't.
Sorry this is so long I just keep thinking this is only his 3rd day in the world and already I've failed him. He's so beautiful and has a mummy who can't cope, sleep or feed him. I can hardly see to write this I can't stop crying.
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sweetpea36 · 25/05/2012 05:49
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