I was constantly jealous and easily upset throughout the pregnancy. no sickness. just hormones. I thought once I had my baby it would all end. but I'm still really easily triggered, such as getting angry, upset and very emotional. The only adult company I get is from my boyfriend. and it mostly end in a bickering and argument. ( i can see hes fed up with all this to and wants to be happy again) then horrible things get said in the heat of the moment. I admit I do over analyse on a lot of things ( but i don't realise until after i've done it) and can't get myself to stop. I haven't got any motherly friends ( i would love to) and I don't want to keep taking it all out on him. I want the bad emotions to stop. i'm not able to calm down once angry or upset and i cant seem to cheer up easily to. its hard to just be able to sit there and chill, and im not very good at faking a smile either.

I just want these feelings to stop.