Will try to keep this short.
I've known my friend for about 10years and we've always had a lot of chemistry. He's had a thing about me since school but I was in a relationship for most of that time.
A few years ago he moved to France to live with his dad, and we didn't have a lot of contact. Last year he contacted me saying he was coming over and did I fancy meeting up? I was just beginning to feel human again after having dd (her dad cheated when I was pg and was promptly kicked out) so I thought why not, I wanted to know whether the spark was still there.
He came over and we clicked and had an amazing time but agreed it'd be just the one weekend as we didn't want a long distance relationship. A week later we admitted it wasn't enough and then had a year long relationship. On mother's day this year, we called it a day. He was finding the distance too difficult. Originally the plan was that I eventually moved there but began feeling like I really didn't want to do that once the rose tinted glasses were off.
We kept in contact. A few weeks ago he called to tell me he still loved me, but didn't know what to do about it. He's just been over for another visit and it's been like we never split up. So easy to pick up where we left off. However am feeling a bit that I knew he was only over for a few days and that I'm feeling increasingly upset that he's leaving again in a few hours. He's been utterly amazing since he's been here and I really wish we didn't have to go back to RL.
I really should know better. I'm generally quite good at suppressing unwelcome feelings but keep feeling like I'm about to burst into tears, and really need a hug.
AIBU to feel this way?