to be totally fed up and cyber ranting

[sevenkeystomysoul]

I have been a single parent for two and a half years. I have a beautiful, clever, funny and affectionate DD who is my whole life, I adore her. I didn't have her until my 40s and always tell myself that I would be a sad, unfulfilled woman of a certain age leading a meaningless life that centred around my career/cats if I hadn't been blessed with DD. BUT, DD is out with her Dad and I am alone with my self-indulgent thoughts and I am FED UP of the financial struggle, FED UP of having no-one to share the daily drudge with, FED UP of never going out for dinner or to the cinema or on holiday, FED UP of taking responsibility for everything and having no-one there for me. I know IABU but I'm hoping for a little catharsis. Off to sweep the yard, whoo hoo, will let you know if the ranting helped upon my return...

Sorry you are feeling like this. Hope the rant helped a bit.

Well while you're alone today you could go to the cinema etc

Thanks Hectate, it did, as did the snail massacre in the yard! I know life's not a bowl of cherries, and we just need to keep counting our blessings to get through, but some days I just want one teeny, tiny cherry, just one.

My rants always turn into housework too.

No, no you are not BU. Tis how it goes for lone parents. You can't run and you can't hide sort of feeling.

Any friends/family to go out with? Or invite round for dinner? Always helps to put things in perspective. You need 'you time'. Sounds a bit american, but somehow you've got to get it.

I know where you are coming from. I've been a single parent for the last 9 years and I have my "what the fuck have I done to deserve this" self-indulgent, self-pitying, lonely, fed up with the world moments.

Everyone is entitled to a rant every now and then regardless of circumstances

HanBanan , 'You can't run and you can't hide sort of feeling' is exactly right, sometimes you just want someone else to deal with everything, but there's no-one else there. Generally, I'm fine with things and actually prefer it being just me and DD, as opposed to our previous set-up, but I suppose those little moments of hopelessness are inevitable, whatever your situation, it's the human condition for all those who have even the tiniest bit of awareness. I could go round to friends, but tbh, I can't be bothered now and DD will be home in a couple of hours. But I have decided that tonight, she will be fed, bathed and in bed early and I will sit and watch a DVD and have an early night myself. I am a terrible one for faffing and allowing DD's bedtime to eat into my evenings, so often find myself eating dinner at 10pm and not having any relaxing time.