My DH has had a bad back for about 8 weeks now, hes on the strongest painkillenrs which make him dozy but he is back at work now.He is miserable-not even trying to be positive and not been helping round the house much even though he is not supposed to staying still so he could wash up. He also has an eye infection and this afteernoon he phoned me to say he was coming home sick with a cold. When he got home he just moaned and moaned and went to bed. DD has been particularly difficult today and I needed to get her changed after coming in soaked from the garden. I asked him to change herbefore he went to bed, it was all very calm and normal at this point, and he refused saying he was too ill.
She then proceeded to argue with me about getting dressed and lost it with me and hit/scratched me full in the face. I yelled a bit-not too much just raised my voice at her and he came out of the bedroom and told me to calm down.
I just lost it-screamed the place down packed a suitcase and said I was fed up withbeing the drudge round here and not getting any help. Lets see how you manage without me for a few days sort of thing I buggered off in my car for a few hours and cried a lot in a laybay. A bot music and a nice drive in the country and I decided to go home again.
I feel really guilty now, I swore my head off in front of my daughter and him, literally screamed and cried and slammed about. Acting like a furious teen. He ws ok with me when I got back and I know he is feeling awful but it's just going on & on. He is a bit precious at times, he has a history of various stress related illnesses over the years-including one that he cured with counselling. He admitted a psychosamatic (sp?) element to that illness and yet I cant make him see that maybe this time if he tried to be more positive he may feel better. I am so sick of his health affecting eveything.