to want to continue to take lovely pharmacueticals when I want to?

[Nemofish]

My doctor prescribed me diazepam 2mg up to 3 times per day as I suffer from anxiety disorder and was going on holiday (HUGE trigger for me).

It was great. I actually managed to enjoy myself. They were some times of stress but generally the medication worked extremely well.

I have some ishoos that I am working on, and the 2 biggest ones are going to get close to being resolved in the next few weeks. Also I will be having some extra counselling and help.

AIBU to want to continue taking this lovely medication which allows me to smile everyday and just get through for the time being? Or am I being a loon that will end up accosting old ladies for their pensions so I can buy more vallies off Dodgy Dave down the road

I can tell you right now that my GP's will tell me to piss off as they are tightfisted careful about prescribing.

But AIBU?

Thanks susiecutie. I have decided that IABU, and that really I need to try the drug free route. Remind me that I said that when the first panic attacks kicks in tonight...

I don't feel I am depressed though. I have had depression in the past, so I have something to compare it to.

I just struggle with the 'normal' stuff - I just don't feel safe. Ever. Although some things feel less safe than others, if that makes sense.

I am working on it though, I won't let it beat me.

Nemo, if you are having panic attacks, it is perfectly reasonable to be taking diazepam for this. Its a clear indication for its use
You won't be on it long term hopefully, as you can continue with the other help and when you have found other coping mechanisms, you can slowly reduce the dosage and will be fine.
So many drugs have such stigma attached to them when infact they are useful and necessary. ignore those stigmas and take it whilst you need it. Hopefully you won't for long

Good luck with it all