To just want to give up

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I know I am being unreasonable.
But I am so miserable! I can't see the point of anything and don't feel I have a future.
BUT my children do have a future and they need me. So I have to live because I have to live for them. And I have to smile and be happy for them. And I love them both so much.
But sometimes I just think I want to give up! Is that unreasonable or normal?

Shockers - I just had a look in the bathroom cabinet and there are some fizzy things like Berocca but another brand, I was having a look to see what was in them that might make me feel a bit better and saw the asparatame - it's even the 1st ingredient - I was just coming to ask you if it was in Berocca!! I'll go to the chemist and see if I can get some in tablet form - which is a bugger as I would much prefer it as a drink, I'm not too good with tablets Anything is worth a go... it's amazing isn't it, the little things (like the LV) that give you a lift....

Ok, so forgive my ignorance ... but what's the deal with the aspartame? I like the fizzy tablets but sounds like they're no good for you?

aspartame is the artificial sweetener thats in a lot of diet fizzy drinks and juices. Not good for you... linked to allsorts.

I found I was letting life get to me and having those odd dark thoughts around Christmas time. We were also having all the types of stress you mention. I started taking St John's Wort (I didn't feel massively depressed or like I needed to see the doctor but would have gone if I did). It has definitely helped, and reduced the feelings to the odd wobbly day (which I think is normal). Not sure if it would help you, and not sure if bf (I think you said you were) you should take them, but it might be something to worth bearing in mind for later. The recession is really hard for lots of people, job-wise, and it does take its toll on other areas of life like your relationship, you are not alone.