Well I should have listened to you girls, looks like my dh new lease of life lasted a whole 2 days and then took a turn for the worst.
Everything started on Friday night when I figured we would have another night together but it turns out this was not acceptable to him as he had "spent the last 2 nights with you" , I then thought maybe I was being unreasonable so agree that he could play his games on the understanding that he would come to bed a decent time. How wrong was I!!
Next thing i know I wake up at 3am and he is nowhere to be seen!, I go downstairs and there he is on his game shouting, swearing and being abusive, he then looks at me and just says "don't start" , this then made me go mad, I shouted , he shouted and his parting words were "if you're not happy then fuck off" , so i went to bed in tears and he seemed like he could not even give a shit.
A while later he comes to bed I pretended to be a sleep, , I wake up the following morning and our bed is soaking wet! When i realize why i scream at him to wake up, I tell him that he drank so much he wet the bed, he denies this saying he spilt his glass of water when he came to bed, I told him he was a liar as I was awake when he came to bed and stormed out the house taking the kids and went to my mothers.
Yesterday I had a txt from him simply saying "I'm glad you're gone and I can fill your space easily" , I couldn't believe when I read that txt, how dare he say that after all i have done for him? and how can he just throw away 15 years?.
I have now decided to move out for good and plan on going to cab like was recommended by a few here, I don't even feel this is worth fighting for anymore i feel, in fact I know i deserve better. Maybe I should have took his cousins offer up that he made early into my relationship, he told me, his cousin {my dh} was no good and he would be better for me.
I have been told to look at the positives by mum and I then think of my kids and that does help, I just can't believe how much he has changed over the years, from a loving caring husband and father to a bedwetter!, and I have just finished potty training our youngest!
anyway I'm home now gathering some stuff listening to my favourite duffy cd while he is out at the football. I won't be able to post as much now as the pc is in my parents living room but I'll try and update after I have spoke to cab.
Once again thanks for every ones help, I feel with the support from my parents and from you lot I can do this and I'll show that bastard I don't need him or his money!.