to feel just a teensy bit disappointed?

[MathsMadMummy]

so, background, 2 kids (DD 2.9, DS 7m) and not wanting any more. DH getting the snip in a few years but I'm going to get the implanon first just in case we change our minds.

no periods, but have felt very funny and sick and a bit like I did when pregnant before. completely terrified, don't want to do it all again, 2nd pregnancy was horrible, and 2 kids is hard enough, we'd have to move, etc etc. so, finally got the guts up to take a test, and it's negative. thank fuck (the exact words when DH showed me the result!)

so... why do I feel just the tiniest bit sad?

Because a baby is yummy scrummy and it is perfectly normal to feel like this. Doesn't mean you secretly want another. Or it could mean you would have been happy to have the decision made for you. he isn't snipped yet, it doesn't mean you won't have another in the future..

oh and I did know it was extremely unlikely, hardly had any sex for a start, using condoms and still BFing...

I know what you mean, MMM.
You are relieved you won't have to put up with a difficult pg, childbirth, more sleepless nights...
But you are disappointed you won't smell a newborns head, squidge their little hands and love a whole new person.

I've made myself broody now.

You are talking to someone who persuaded dh she needed to do a test when we hadn't had sex that previous month..

This has happened to me a few times. Two kids, no plans for any more, but have had a couple of 'scares' since our youngest was born 18 months ago and each time I get a negative I feel gutted. Go figure, as the Yanks say!

My period is currently a couple of days late, actually, and when I started to get those familiar period cramps this morning i admit to feeling a bit sad. like you, we have hardly had sex this month and always use condoms, so not much chance.

I dunno...

lol.
I am much more relieved than I am disappointed. TBH I envisaged myself crying! The one time our condom split, when I was 19, I cried when my period turned up 2 weeks later. That day was my LMP actually, as we TTC'd after that and got PG straight away!

never had a BFN before, I think that's why it's so weird - we've been very lucky, no MCs or anything (unlike many women in my family)

DS is still ever so squidgy.

Yep happens alot here, another baby would be a financial disaster, i hate being pregnant and am not that keen on children .

I also have the urge whilst having sex to say shall we have another baby but in the cold hard light of day i don't want one so i don't know why i want to say it, must be hormones

I always have this, I had to do a test recently because I'm having bad tummy problenms and didn't know if the constant nausea was tummy related or something else!! So I tested and was slightly dissapointed it was neg... even though it would have been a total, total disaster if I were!!