me, I have had a unloving relationship with parents for as long as I can remember,my grandparents were involved in my life from about 13 untill my grandad died,his wish was to make amends with them and build bridges,so I went back to live with my parents.
The problem is this, my Dad and I became quite close as time went by,he did try to show me love mum was another matter she never cuddled me or told me she loved me, I blamed her upbringing and am used to it now.
Since having a family of my own we dont spend much time together anymore, they make excuses if i ask them to look after the kids and when they do they spilt them up which I hate,they say were to old now and cant manage it,I try to understand they have their own lives but I rarley ask for anything.
My Dad promised me the other day we would meet up and he would give me money to buy the kids and me christmas presents,when I went to pick him up he gave me the money and said go on your own.It wasnt the money but the fact I wanted him to spend time with me and the kids.
I left feeling sad and cried all the way home and Ibu as this has never bothered me before but I think more and more about the times they let me down or dont bother or push me away, I dont want them to die and regret that I didnt spend more time with them.
I play it down but have promised I will be different with my children, whats sad is everyone around me see's it and im embrassed as my partner has a very loving family, I told mil about this and cried to her,she said to me you will always have me.
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