Thought about namechanging for this but sod it. I'm not sure if I am losing the plot. My relationship with DH seems to have been rocky for ages, especially after we moved abroad. He got a big promotion after years of me being the main wage earner. I have done all I can to support him (gave up job, sold "my" house) It was hard at first, but I found a new job, we got settled etc. I'm not all bitter and twisted about this by the way. It was a good move for the family!
Like many people we have had a tough year financially. We moved last year to a bigger house (rented) and the bills cost more. DH seems to have got more and more unpleasant as time has gone by. I know he is stressed at work and do try to take up the slack. I work FT too so not always easy.
He wants to come home from work and watch tv cos he is stressed! I cook dinner, make pack lunches, bathe dd etc. If there is something on I want to watch I do, otherwise I mn or soemthing. I'm not allowed to bother him when he is watching something as he "had a hard day". Despite efforts to get more "engagement" from him nothing happens and I have taken to drinking wine and MNetting of an evening.
Tonight it has completed exploded. I've been telling him for ages that I am fed up of sorting everything as he is "too busy". I sent him a couple of choices for nxt years holiday today. He has yelled at me that he is so busy he can't look at such things and how selfish i am to expect him to. But only the other day he emailed asking about my Amazon wishlist and sent me a link to his...
He has totally gone crazy tonight! I am on his back all the time! He doesn't get a moment's peace (I left my bag at home this am and he was still here in his dressing gown at 9am), I spend all my time drinking.
Sorry for going on. So he completely went crazy tonight. He is not having any fun, he has no money, he earns XXXX a year so he should be able to shopping as he sees fit, he NEEDS peace and quiet when he gets home from work. I am driving him crazy with my incessant nagging (mentioned picking a campsite). He was yelling and screaming in quite an alarming way then stormed off.
He is a perfectionist and does tend to bottle stuff up. I actually remained calm during the outburst. ie stuff at work is not my fault, and maybe we need to talk to someone about stress and the relationship. He went even more crazy at the horror that this is his life. Yep, wife, child, responsibilities. From what I could work out from the yelling - He earns so much he should have designer clothes, lots of fun, and not have the stress of choosing one campsite over another. Oh and all this is my fault as I drink too much wine and go on MN.
Sorry have gone on! It is therapeutic to write it all down. But St Nicolas comes on Sunday so I don't feel like I should pack the bags and go back to UK.....